A shield I wish I had

I have a confession to make. I have read 'The breaking dawn' a million times! You know, the last one in the Twilight series. I am not sure why I keep reading it, but I am always drawn to that book. Initially when I started reading the Twilight series, I was a little pissed off. How can a teenager fall in love with someone? When I say fall in love I mean really really in love-truly madly deeply in love. You are immature, you have loads of growing up to do at that age and here is a girl who falls in love with a century or two year old vampire! How does an 18 year old classify her feelings as 'love that lasts forever'?! Its so naive and I feel it is books like these that cause teens to make stupid mistakes, run off and get married, etc etc.

So why do I keep reading this book? I particularly like the part where Bella realizes her strengths as a Vampire. Where she had been under estimating her self all throughout the series, time comes when it is her strength that saves all :) (sounds corny...i know!) Her mental shield (as it is called in the book) protects her from any kind of threat. Nobody can read her mind nor can anybody harm her, emotionally or mentally. The book describes the bad guys as vampires who have strengths to mess with the mind. And she can also project her shield and protect the ones she loves. Nobody gets hurt.

I guess it's this strength in her shield that excites me. Do I wish I had a shield like that? ofcourse! protect myself and my loved ones from any sort of harm-why not?!? But I get selfish at this point. I want more powers! I want the power to harm those people who have caused me & my family great distress. For instance, lightening bolts out of my eyes! LOL!!

oh well! whats the harm in wishing? if I wish really hard, someday it might just come true! LOL!

Ciao!

A new beginning

So here I am finally making an attempt to put down my thoughts into the cyber world! I have always wanted to do this, but I could not pen down all my actual feelings. But now since I have broken away from things that have been bogging me down, I can try blogging, honestly!

Life s been hard of late. Things have been falling apart and I have been desperately trying to hold on and mend myself. I would like to believe and hope that I can come out of all this mess without any major damage.

I have a family who has been immensely supportive. I know its been hard on them but they have been putting up a brave face for me. My friends have been plain awesome! They have been there for me every single day. Thank You God so much for all of them. I must have done something right to have such beautiful people around me.

A very narcissist statement coming up.

"Here s to me!!!"