A shield I wish I had

I have a confession to make. I have read 'The breaking dawn' a million times! You know, the last one in the Twilight series. I am not sure why I keep reading it, but I am always drawn to that book. Initially when I started reading the Twilight series, I was a little pissed off. How can a teenager fall in love with someone? When I say fall in love I mean really really in love-truly madly deeply in love. You are immature, you have loads of growing up to do at that age and here is a girl who falls in love with a century or two year old vampire! How does an 18 year old classify her feelings as 'love that lasts forever'?! Its so naive and I feel it is books like these that cause teens to make stupid mistakes, run off and get married, etc etc.

So why do I keep reading this book? I particularly like the part where Bella realizes her strengths as a Vampire. Where she had been under estimating her self all throughout the series, time comes when it is her strength that saves all :) (sounds corny...i know!) Her mental shield (as it is called in the book) protects her from any kind of threat. Nobody can read her mind nor can anybody harm her, emotionally or mentally. The book describes the bad guys as vampires who have strengths to mess with the mind. And she can also project her shield and protect the ones she loves. Nobody gets hurt.

I guess it's this strength in her shield that excites me. Do I wish I had a shield like that? ofcourse! protect myself and my loved ones from any sort of harm-why not?!? But I get selfish at this point. I want more powers! I want the power to harm those people who have caused me & my family great distress. For instance, lightening bolts out of my eyes! LOL!!

oh well! whats the harm in wishing? if I wish really hard, someday it might just come true! LOL!

Ciao!